February 24, 2012

Answering Your Requests and Emails!

I've had emails and comments about my poly relationship and what's happening with it. Thank you for asking, and for letting me know what you are interested in! 

There hasn't been too much going on with my Sir for a few weeks now. This is the downside to having someone being "just a play partner" in common language it is someone you play with casually. Sir has a Primary relationship as well as a Secondary relationship and a very casual relationship with a play partner he seems once in a while. This can make my play time with Sir very challenging and although we both know that we really enjoy our time together, it is I that is looking at what is going on in my life, and the ups and downs that happen in one's life. I see at times a very lucky girl to have a loving Master who works very hard every day to provide for us and I see a Sir, who I do enjoy playing with, but the time apart seems to grow more each time. 

Sometimes, especially when Master is very busy with work and comes home exhausted that after I tend to drawing his bath or giving him a much deserved and earned massage, that leaves little for any playing on the dark side. 

I miss Master and Sir right now. It isn't easy when life gets in the way, but given that each represent a piece of the lifestyle I enjoy, I know that with patience and time things always find a way to work out. 

Thank you to my readers and comments left on what you like about my blog and what you want to see more of. Without you, I wouldn't know which direction to write about :) 

For my Fetish Model fans, discussions are in the works to start gearing up for new photographs, so keep your eyes out for new shots in the near and not so distant future! 

Live, Love and Laugh,
Sierra xx

February 20, 2012

Kitty wants a drink

I decided to try out uploading to YouTube today. Its been something I've wanted to do for a while (oh hey I can mark that off my Bucket List Bucket List 2012! ) it was just more about finding the courage to learn and then do something fun.

So my little tester is my kitten Cinder Kitty Wants a Drink. He has this passion and freak out over water! Doesn't matter if it is in a glass or in the tub or sink, if he can get to it, you can be sure he will. The other is chasing toilet paper and watching the toilet water flush, but that's a whole nother episode LOL!

Please share my link, post your comments, check out the ads, I'd like to get as much feedback as possible, so I can tweak and improve upcoming videos!

Have a great day!

Cinder checking out where the mice are! LOL

February 18, 2012

The Ups and Downs of being a Play Partner

I am starting to think that I don't like the beginning  NRE (New Relationship Energy), the butterflies, the laughter, the incessant flirting and bantering. The phase can go for days and days. Then, without any warning, the natural occurrence of the next phase enters. 

I knew when I started playing with Sir, that as much as He is interested in playing with me, He also said He didn't know how often it would be. At first it seemed back to back (it was actually about 2 to 4 weeks in between our visits). I enjoyed our visits, our energy, the connection and for me exploration to areas not touched before. 

As time has started to move on and its been about 3 to 4 weeks since I last saw Sir, I have really started to think about what I want. I've come to realize I do want a regular play partner, but I don't know how regular this  relationship would be. 

My Master is my rock, I talk to Him about everything and when I feel unsure or uncertain, He supports me and reminds me that He isn't going anywhere and of how much He loves me. I know that through Him and His love and unconditional support, I continue to grow and flourish within my submission to Him who I call Master. 

I'm not sure if this is just a reality check for me, and if so, then I may accept the situation and find another play partner who will give me more of what I am looking for; or Sir will stay in the picture but I recognize that we won't be playing very much. If that is the case, our time together may just fade away.

The ups and downs of being a play partner - sometimes when it works, it works great; but when it is difficult, it can be very challenging.

February 17, 2012

Passion and Poison

My blog is not usually used as a venting ground. I prefer to do that somewhere else. However, having said that,  the last couple of days I have been brewing over something and even after I have spoken to friends to get their feed back and checking on my sources to get more information, unfortunately my passion for protecting animals and especially our own pets, has caused me to become very determined to find an end resolution to the situation I have been made aware of. 

It seems a very few short days ago, my neighbor and I were speaking, she wanted to let me know that she had noticed a couple of dead squirrels in our complex, now it should be noted that we do not have an abundance of squirrels in the rural area I live in. My neighbor went on further to comment that she had spoken to our Property Manager and he confirmed that poison had been put out by a neighbor, but that he wouldn't reveal who that was! 

When I heard this, I became very upset! I started to have thoughts of "what if's" and not long after my anxiety started to creep up. I stopped myself and reminded myself that Blaze (my beautiful JRT) is home, he's safe and wagging his tail happily in front of me :D. However, the next day, I am skeptical about walking him in and around our part of the neighborhood as I don't know who it is that put it out, and I also don't know what to look for!

I did look in my Community Rules and there is nothing in there about poisoning rodents, I called my local Animal Shelter and they said there was nothing they could do. So, after doing a more thorough check and I came across this note from the BC SPCA Predator Control (i.e. Pest Control). I feel like I have finally stumbled on something viable and content worthy. 

With this, I will leave my blog to be updated when I know more in the coming days! 

Remember to love your pet as much as they love you!  

Ok back to my regular pervy posts! 

February 14, 2012

Valentines Day!!

Yes, it is THAT day where a cupid is apparently shooting arrows to those needing direction! 

Today I woke up to my Master saying those words to me, and followed with a hug and a kiss.  Something so simple, yet so meaningful!

After not having someone in my life to share any day with, let alone this day, or worse yet, having someone who could care less about this day or any other day. 

So I did some research online to see what others do on this red filled heart day! This is what I found out: http://www.timeanddate.com/holidays/canada/valentine-day

"Many people send letters, cards, presents and gifts to the person with whom they have or want to have a romantic relationship. Valentine's Day cards are often red or pink and decorated with images of hearts, red roses, teddy bears, presents or happy couples kissing or embracing. They may be in brightly colored, perhaps pink or red, envelopes.
Many people give gifts to loved ones on Valentine's Day. Common gifts are:
  • Flowers, particularly red roses.
  • Chocolates and/or candy.
  • Teddy bears.
  • Toy hearts.
  • Sparkling wine.
  • Cosmetics.
  • Clothing, including lingerie.
  • Jewelry.
Some people celebrate Valentine's Day lavishly. They may treat their partner to a themed meal in a restaurant or a night in a luxury hotel. Others may take short breaks or vacations on Valentine’s Day.
Valentine's Day can also be an occasion for a more general celebration of love and appreciation of people who are personally important to an individual. School children may help decorate their classrooms with hearts and spring birds and make cards or presents for their parents. Stores may also sell Valentine's Day themed cakes, cookies or candy. Teenagers and young adults may hold Valentine's Day parties or dances on or near February 14."
I'm curious though, if you are spiritual in nature, how do you embrace Valentine's Day? 
I found this article and an excerpt from it, that really resonated with me, and something I know not enough of us do... and that is courtesy of the  Huffington Post Meditation Center
"The focus for Valentine's Day is a unique twist on the what the day has come to mean: before showering your love and affection on someone else (which is a decidedly cool thing to do every day!), how about starting with a simple focus on loving yourself first?
It has been said that we should give from our overflow and Donna's meditation today begins with the premise that the more loving we have inside, the more we have to share with others."
I also want my single followers to know, that I am being mindful of yourselves, and I know the saying "Single Awareness Day" feels more announced today than on any other day. Other than society creating a huge hoopla with celebratory gifts and tokens to loved ones, the thing I want you all to know is this 

In my eyes, you are ALL my Valentine!!

February 11, 2012

Bucket List

Writing a bucket list is important to me, as it will help keep me focused on what I want to accomplish before I die.  I will keep adding to it as I think of more items. If you think of something you would like me to add to my list, please email me at sultrysensualsierra@gmail.com.

I will blog about what I have crossed off and from time to time include pictures and talk about what the experience was like. My goal with writing out a bucket list is to encourage me to always live life to the fullest and to be mindful of the present.
  1. Fly in a hot air balloon
  2. Do a tour in a Helicopter
  3. Visit Mount Baker (Never been)
  4. Para-sailing in a warm climate
  5. Fly First Class Round Trip
  6. Vacation in Jamaica
  7. Volunteer work with mental illness
  8. Volunteer work with animal shelters
  9. Volunteer work with battered women
  10. Volunteer work with homeless shelters
  11. Help someone anonymously
  12. Send a message in a bottle
  13. Go to England to see family 
  14. Work on my weight loss and get back to my karate weight 
  15. Work on improving my strength training 
  16. Work on my cardiovascular
  17. Add exercises every day or other day til I am at 30 to 45 mins.
  18. Take Blaze (my dog) to Tynehead Park and walk an hour at least once a week
  19. Get a dog preferably from a rescue or animal shelter
  20. Visit Jasmine and Destiny with Blaze 
  21. Have a salt water tank again 
  22. Have my blood taken to make sure my cholesterol is below warning
  23. Get yearly STD testing
  24. Donate Blood
  25. Stop biting my nails
  26. Get gel nails again
  27. Get my hair cut and styled
  28. Do Pin Up Modelling
  29. Do More Fetish Modelling
  30. Do More Photography with Patrick Parenteau
  31. Write my Will
  32. Learn how to use YouTube 
  33. Learn how to make money online with PTC (Point to Click)
  34. Have my ashes released in my favorite park and in the ocean
  35. Finish renovations started in my kitchen
  36. Start renovations in my bathroom 
  37. Expand my vegetable garden 
  38. Go to  Scotland
  39. Get another tattoo - this one representing my pets (Rizzo, Blaze, Teo, Jingles paw prints)
  40. Visit  Italy
  41. Try surfing in California or Hawaii
  42. Go back to Hawaii
  43. Go Whale Watching in Vancouver
  44. Return to fishing - Salmon or Trout
  45. Sleep overnight on a boat, and see the florescent ling cod (loved it the first time)
  46. Vacation in Vegas (I've never been)
  47. Go to Victoria and visit the Empress Hotel and have High Tea
  48. Get a full body massage followed up by a soak in a mud bath
  49. Return to Acupuncture 
  50. Have a Reiki treatment
  51. Enjoy a Hot Stone Massage  (keep it up for health benefits)
  52. Enjoy regular massages (helps cleanse my body of toxins)
  53. Cleanse my home of negative energy
  54. Do a Yeast and Intestinal Cleanse twice a year
  55. Continue on my spiritual journey 
  56. Continue with my working on my inner self
  57. Start and Finish the program called Dialectical Behavioral Therapy  DBT   
  58. When ready - stop taking HRT
  59. When ready - stop taking Beta Blocker
  60. When ready - reduce Effexor XR
  61. Take a ride on a real train (no, not the skytrain!)
  62. Visit Alcatraz in San Francisco
  63. Ride a trolley car in San Francisco
  64. Ride a gondola (maybe in Switzerland or Banff)
  65. Have a Long Term Savings account
  66. Get Registered Disability Savings Account
  67. File appeal for CPP Disability
  68. File complaint with College of Physicians and Surgeons re: Ear DX
  69. File complaint with Patient Care re: medical treatment at LMH
  70. Visit a Winery in California
  71. Ride a horse on a beach at sunset 
  72. Sit on a beach watching the sunrise/sunset
  73. Swim naked in Jamaica, Hawaii or Barbados
  74. Have sex under a waterfall
  75. Make love in the rain (been a long time)
  76. Dance in the Rain 
  77. Go to a Swingers Resort
  78. Check out Allure 
  79. Stay at an all inclusive Resort
  80. See a show at the River Rock Hotel and Casino
  81. See a show at the Red Robinson Theatre
  82. See a Broadway Play on Broadway
  83. Walk through Central Park in New York
  84. Go to see the Phantom of the Opera
  85. Write an erotic story
  86. Create a following on my blog
  87. Have a contest on my blog  Sexy on the Darkside
  88. Encourage people to read my blog  Coming out of the Dark
  89. Create an income from online sites
  90. Get to know my nephews
  91. Visit an authentic haunted house
  92. Drive down the Oregon Coast
  93. Ride in a Horse drawn Carriage in the winter
  94. Stay in a cabin in the winter
  95. Go snow shoeing
  96. Sit in a hot tub in the winter
  97. Have a real Christmas Tree in my home
  98. Vacation in Disney World in Florida
  99. Vacation in Miami 
  100. Swim with dolphins
  101. Ride an Elephant 
  102. Touch a Giraffe and feed them
  103. Go on an African Safari
  104. Visit Okinawa, Japan
  105. Have sushi in Okinawa, Japan
  106. Go to the 9/11 site in New York, USA
  107. Learn Bellydancing and make my own costume
  108. Have a romantic picnic in the park
  109. Watch the stars and name the constellations
  110. Make a wish on a shooting star
  111. See the Northern Lights
  112. Watch a movie outdoors on a big screen
  113. Go to a Drive In Movie (haven't since I was a young girl)
  114. Play spin the bottle (haven't since I was a young girl)
  115. Play truth or dare (haven't since I was a young girl)
  116. Learn to fire a gun
  117. Go back to Karate and get my black belt 
  118. Take a kickboxing class
  119. Visit my close friend in Hines Creek, Alberta
  120. Visit the boys I had in Kinship care 
  121. Go and see Bruce Lee's grave and send positive thoughts and energy
  122. Go and see Brandon Lee's grave and send positive thoughts and energy
  123. Learn to make soap from scratch
  124. Take up knitting again
  125. Relearn crocheting
  126. Learn to make candles from bees wax
  127. Learn to make a scrapbook
  128. Learn to take photographs of high quality
  129. Learn a new language other than English and Spanish
  130. Go see a Dinner Theatre 
  131. Write a book
  132. Pay off my Student Loan
  133. Ride a mechanical bull
  134. Go to  Blodel Conservatory
  135. Check out  Dr. Sun Yat Sun - Chinese Garden
  136. Continue to get the word out about mental illness 
  137. Spend more time with my family on the K side. 
  138. Go to my family grave site
  139. Create my own website  SultrySierra
  140. Attend 30 week program at Group Therapy Services - BPD

February 9, 2012

100 Things About Me

1. I am the eldest child and have one sister.
2. I'm a Capricorn
3. My birthday is 2 days before Christmas
4. I am an animal lover
5. I have 1 dog a Jack Russell Terrier - named Blaze
6. I have 3 cats - Jingles, Cinder and Ella
7. I had a Border Collie - named Rizzo, who passed away Dec. 14/11 at 11 1/2.
8. I have red hair
9. I am an amateur model
10.I have hazel eyes
11. I am curvy 
12. I love Pin Up Modelling
13. I have freckles
14. I attained my brown belt in martial arts in 2005
15. I moved to Alberta for 7 years and came back in 2008
16. I settled my multiple car accidents in 2010 after 7 years of court matters.
17. I am bisexual
18. I am a submissive to a loving Dominant.
19. I am poly-amorous 
20. I recently started a play partner relationship 
21. I love impact scenes
22. I love fire and knife play
23. I am exploring deep humiliation scenes
24. I love to wear corsets, mini skirts, gloves, thigh highs with the seam up the back, and high heels
25. I own my own home
26. I own my own car a 2010 Chevy Aveo
27. I am very intuitive and have spirits who visit me
28. I am spiritual
29. I read my horoscope
30. I love everything to do with astrology
31. I have seen the Northern Lights 
32. I have watched many shooting stars and made a wish on every one of them
33. I have one tattoo in the middle of my back called "Yin and Yang Dragons" 
34. I am a Swinger
35. I am a Kinkster
36. Carnations are my favorite flower
37. My grandparents mean everything to me
38. I am an aunt to two little boys
39. I love the Sunshine
40. I love the Spring time
41. I love to garden
42. I love to go to the park
43. I love going to nude beaches
44. I smile and think of a special person when I see a butterfly
45. I believe that dragon flies represent new life
46. I love the Young and Restless and have been watching it since I was a young girl
47. I love General Hospital and have been watching it since the Luke and Laura story line
48. I love sparring and kickboxing and miss it.
49. I post on Fetlife
50. I am a Twitter -a-holic 
51. I am a blogger and have been for over a year 
52. I love to watch Wimbeldon 
53. Andre Agassi is one of my favorite tennis players
54. I have a background in law
55. I am shy
56. I like meeting people
57. I like red wine, merlot is my preference (either Chilean or South African wines)
58. I love candles
59. I was born in Vancouver, BC Canada 
60. I grew up here
61. My parents come from England
61. I am rooted in my English ancestry
62. I have been married
63. I am divorced
64. I have been to Hawaii 3 times, California, Boston, New York, England, Mexico and Texas
65. I left home at 19
66. I am an child abuse survivor
67. I have had 2 miscarriages
68. I had my first job at 14 
69. I believe in life after death
70. I have had 3 and 4 somes
71. I am estranged from my family
72. I have 1 girlfriend who has been in my life for over 20 years
73. I have 1 other girlfriend who has been a solid force with me for 4 years
74. I am working on being my authentic self
75. I love incense 
76. I do get emotionally involved in my relationships
77. I have several piercings namely - 2 earring holes on each ear, my belly and my clitoris
78. I love Reiki and always fall into a calm space when having a massage
79. I love aromatherapy as I find it peaceful
80. My favorite sex toy is my Hitachi
81. My tag name is Lovetobespanked 
82. I love to be bound and cuffed, I am immediately calm 
83. I go to Subbie Tea Socials once a month 
84. I belong to a forum called Gracious Host as a way to meet other kinksters
85. My favorite colors are red and black
86. I love to shop at Thrift Stores
87. I love the series True Blood
88. I love the series Spartacus 
89. My favorite holiday is Halloween
90. I love houses decorated in Christmas Lights
91. I love the smell of pine needles 
92. I love bubble baths with epsom salts
93. I am very feminine and love to have my nails done and toes as well
94. I love to have my hair done at the hair salon with my friend Robin
95. I won't take the skytrain 
96. I have my drivers license 
97. I believe in ghosts
98. I believe that karma does happen when you least expect it
99. I also believe that things happen for a reason
100. I am a trustworthy and loyal friend

February 6, 2012

Icy Hot Pussy and Clothes Pegs

I've been introduced to the wonderful gel called Icy/Hot! 

Recently during a scene, I was blind folded and bound, legs spread apart. There was a feeling of gel cold at first, then WHAM it became hot as it was swirled around my outer pussy lips. I could feel the flesh puff up, the sensations wild and cravings of the unknown, yet wanting to know what was going to happen next!

Clothes pegs are placed one...by...one on my pussy and tits. Oh how I love clothes pegs! BUT my tits are firm and the flesh around them is taut which makes it difficult to pinch the skin, but not one to disappoint, my nipples are the ones to get pegged.

Within a short period of time, the sensation of the Icy/Hot combined with the pegs pinching my pussy lips, the rush is building, the blood flow starting to be cut off from the pegged parts, the feeling of knowing they were there, was dissipating.  Sensory Deprivation is a huge fetish of mine and being blindfolded I started to ride the waves of endorphin having me in and out of the present. I was ordered to suck His cock while everything was happening. My servitude at this point is solely on His needs.

I'm ordered to rub off and cum. I hear His words through everything happening and the sensations being felt. I was riding the waves and loving every minute of it. I had never experienced anything like this before and I didn't want it to end!! But I know like all good things, they DO end!

I felt the pull of the pegs....1....2 and instantly I cried out! He tells me to focus on what I am doing, sucking his cock. Like a good girl, I do as I am told. The humiliation scene continues.... 3....4 I am now wincing in the shock of feeling the pegs being removed, wanting to pull away and say "no more"! He would have no part of that! My mascara is running down my face, snot now bubbling out of my nose. No longer the put together girl that had arrived a while ago. He was soothing me with his pleasure of seeing me this way and I could barely hear through my own sounds. 

Ultimately though, the pleasure is NOT mine, it is what He wants but the cuddles after and soothing words made it all worth it. 

February 4, 2012

Inspection and Punishment

The dynamics of our relationship are continually learning and evolving. Being poly doesn't mean that I can forget  the expectations placed upon me. Given that I have memory problems, this does make it challenging, so does not living our lifestyle 24/7. Structure is vital to me and this will be something that we will work on. 

I received an email from Master yesterday that He was displeased with me. 

Ouch, was my first thought, as I couldn't fathom what I could have done that would have Him upset with my service. 

Turns out that what I had done was upon returning home from my overnight play date with Sir, I had not presented our play cuff and collar to Master. Master says that it is very important that when I return home to Him, that I present myself to Him as I am returning my submission to Him. 

I had been given the day to talk it out with those that I wished, to be whatever emotion I needed to be, but that at 6pm I was being forced to present myself to Him! Instantly I was upset, well angry was more like it. To make a long story short, when I returned home from my overnight play date, Master had left me with my Aftercare kit and word that I was to relax and take it easy. Yet, I was focused on wanting to make sure His needs would be met when He got home from work. To me this is making sure dinner was ready, our pets were fed, the house was tidy. I did not think about gathering the cuffs and collar for presentation. 

Master called when He was on His way home, I gathered the cuffs and collar and got myself ready for inspection. I then waited for the sound of Master's vehicle.  I was with anticipation, "would He approve, would He ignore me until He decided to greet me?" Suddenly the full perimeters were coming into view. The front door handle turns and I am kneeled with the cuffs laid out for presentation.  Master walks in and acknowledges our pets who are anxious to be greeted. I stayed right where I was, no movement, no asking, just waited. 

After a few minutes, Master asks for each cuff one by one He places them on each wrist and the collar around my neck.  He raises me to my feet and we shared our first words. 

I was asked to go and draw Him a bath and did so eagerly. I placed some soothing bubble bath into the tub. I quickly went and got a lighter to light the candle placing it near the tub and I then waited for Master.  I undressed Him and was ordered to stay while He bathed.  I was asked to bathe Him and did so, listening to His words as He spoke. Taking in all that we talked about, gathering a better understanding of His expectations of me as His submissive.  When He was ready, I dried Him off

Master wanted to go to dinner, and decided on sushi. Yet before we were going, He told me that after we got home He was going to fuck me. I sighed, to which He saw this as me being sassy and promptly put me over His knees bare handed spanking as He reminded me of my place. Master then asked if I wanted to be fucked and I said yes. Thinking I was going to be, I was surprised when I was ordered to lube up a penis dildo and forced to fuck it and suck Him off. I did as I was told, the feelings of humiliation coming over me and when that wasn't enough, he bent me over and fucked me HARD. 

I know my Master will always have my best interests at heart, even when I need a reminder.