Recently I got the chance to do something I have always wanted to do in our Community. I went and attended a Subbie Tea!! First off, my thanks to our hostess yesterday, she truly outdid herself with her hospitality and baking!
It was really great to be able to sit with my "sisters" in our community and listen to various discussions that came up during our get together. Things such as "What is the best way for a submissive to apologize if she is truly remorseful for her behavior", "What are your hard limits" and other various insightful topics.
The great thing about attending this subbie tea, is that the hostess visual is to share not just with ourselves but with others, the values and enjoyment the BDSM Community is truly about in the 30+ years she has been in it.
What does being in the BDSM Community mean to you?
January 30, 2012
January 15, 2012
The energy of the room encapsulating us, the candles, toys, mood and moment had finally come to be! He grabbed His belt, I get very turned on when I see belts! He lifted me up with the belt around my neck, bringing me in for a kiss. The power exchange became intense and suddenly all became aware to me!
Our evening had begun! We played well into the night and eventually drifted off to sleep.
I'm looking to do some new pictures. Yep its that time of year again, time to bring out the toys, fetishes, and fun!! Let's make the magic happen!
Laugh, Live and Licks,
January 12, 2012
The day had finally arrived, my first real poly date with Master home! I have been feeling a lot of nerves and Master had commented that my bratty side had been very prevalent and that I had been very sharp tongued. He took this to mean that I needed to sort through my feelings and just do whatever it was that I needed to do to get ready. Combined with all of that I still was having a lot of uncertainty that I was really going to not have any drama from either "A" or Master.
I did NOT want to give any power to our past experiences with those that claim to be A) poly and B) Dominant. However, I don't want to focus on that, life is about moving forward and that is the direction I am going.
I wanted to wear something sexy, I was going through all my clothing, and as you can imagine, NOTHING looked good lol. Isn't that how it always is when you want to dress to impress? I take a lot of pride in how I present myself not just my Master, but for those I am going to be in the company of. I finally settled on a black mini skirt, thigh high nylons and a black dress top, everything met with Master's approval, he was very pleased with His girl's presentation!!
I left after a few tears of fear and apprehension, not because I didn't want to see "A", but because I have had such negative experiences with my poly dates, that I didn't want to lose my Master as a result of going to play and coming home to something that would reveal itself to be something unhappy. Master assured me several times, that He meant what He said, and said what He means. This is so very important to me and knowing that "A" feels the same as Master, has made this journey even more accepting.
We meet up at our agreed location and we have a bite to eat. Upon greeting me with a hug, "A" whispered in my ear that He was very happy to see me. This made me smile and start to feel more at ease. We didn't stay too long after we finished our meal, I knew that "A" had prepared our room and I had no idea what was about to be before me.
When we got our room, "A" had candles all around, one by one, He lit them setting a ambiance and calmness within the room. He had a variety toys that were laid strategically throughout. Boy oh boy was there a variety of thoughts going through my head!! Yet, not once did He order me to strip and place a collar on me and quip that I was now His bitch for the night.
Music started to play off a really cool looking Ipod dock, the system was clear and crisp, I could tell He was pretty stoked about how well it sounded :). I went to freshen up, and when I returned I remember coming out to the sounds of whip, I watched "A" practice. He wasn't demonstrating to prove anything to me. He was practicing because He has been wanting to explore using a whip and like any Dominant that I know who is true to Himself and to His skills, He will practice for as long as it takes, until a sense of completeness and confidence overrides any uncertainty. We spoke of people we know who are proficient with whipping. Not surprisingly we know the same people.
We continued to talk about what has been laid around the room, the flickers of the candles dancing on the walls. Then as things we moving along a belt appears and is suddenly around my neck......
You might have to say "Pretty Please" and I may just share some more with you!
January 2, 2012
I'm still focused on my health and being in the best shape I can be in, this is always going to be a work in progress, but I know I am worth it, and my photographs will reflect that. I've been reviewing my profile on Fetlife as it is time to clean out peeps that I've not chatted with in at least six months, as well as cleaning up my fetishes. Fetishes are like dust, you can either not sweep or sweep! What's your view of cleaning out stuff? Do you keep stuff forever, or do you go through and get rid of things?
So the topic I chose today is about Including Poly. I've been poly for awhile, but it isn't easy to find someone who is truly poly. There are a lot of wannabe's, those are the one's who say they are poly and what not, but the minute as in my situation my Master came back from a trip out of town, the guys suddenly disappeared. This left a very bad taste in my mouth, so I have kept my heart close to my chest and my experiences known.
For me at times I have had more trouble than its worth in dating, even though Master and I are in an open relationship, He is my Primary and I always discuss possibilities with Him first.
So last week I met with a Dom I've been chatting with for a few months now. I was excited and Master was very supportive, He even told me what to wear and He wanted to inspect me before I went on my date. Let's call him "A". I drove to our agreed meeting spot. Not long after "A" shows up and the first thing I notice is how tall He is. He gives me a hug and we sit down to chat. He orders himself a drink as I had arrived before Him and ordered my own. The waitress also left us the menus. There was energy between us and I just listened to "A" talk and get a better feel of what He is like as person. It is very different when you only ever chat with someone on a computer or by text.
We laughed a lot, shared interests and the waitress came back several times to take our order, but we hadn't even looked at the menu! So we decided to make a decision on what to eat. I ordered the Chicken Taco salad, as I find myself mentally making better choices with my food intake. "A" I believe ordered a burger.
So we carried on chatting, had dinner, the energy had settled a little and I think that was because nerves had calmed a bit. He did go and have a smoke after dinner and I don't smoke anymore so I just hung out at the table while He went outside.
When "A" returned we leisurely finished our drinks, He paid up the bill and we were going to go to our respective cars. But before we left, I saw Him thinking and so I asked Him what was on His mind. He said that He was thinking about whether we were going to go and play or not. Although I was very flattered and happy He thought about that, I hadn't prepared myself to bring a change of clothes and I had my dog with me in the car. Combined with the fact, that I haven't fucked someone on the first meet in a long time. I used to, and sure sometimes it is really hot, but with D/s there are many things to go over before you get into fucking.
"A" offered to drive me to my car, which I happily accepted, although my car wasn't far, just up the road, the weather was pelting horribly. The wind and rain were going sideways! Trees were looking like the branches may collapse. I admit I'm not a fan of driving in the night, let alone with a windy, rainy night ahead of me, and lights glaring on the road, I knew it was not going to be a fun night home.
"A" gets me to my car safely and we chat a bit more and we lean into kiss. It was a soft kiss and a hug, with Him letting out a low growl in my ear, something I am weak in the knees to begin with. I sit back and smile and he puts his hand on my thigh. He says that he wanted to feel my skin, and he says that my skin is so soft.
I smiled again and said yes it is, always has been. I said, well I best go, the drive and all. I kiss Him again, and leave with a smile on my face. Like a gentleman, He watched me open my car door, let my dog out to go to the bathroom before I got in the car and warmed it up. "A" started off and I went my way home.
I texted Him like a good girl when I arrived home as I also let Master know I was home. "A" texted me a few naughty texts and then we called it a night.
We have decided to see one another, and in the meantime we are emailing regularly, talking about boundaries, fetishes, and getting to know one another more. Hrmph, maybe this poly experience may be something that I've been wanting for a while!