April 24, 2011


Today was a milestone for me!~

I had decided to go to our local park with my dogs. Something not out of the ordinary, but what was different, was the location and size of this particular park that I very impromptu chose.

The scene was a luscious and green Sunday morning, it had started to drizzle out which was a bit disheartening due to the weather being so gorgeous on Saturday. But I wanted to make sure my dogs had a good run and play time. So my boyfriend who also hadn't been to this particular park and I made the decision to go here.

I show C the map of where we were and made sure to grab the necessary doggie bags, cell phone etc. and off we went. The grey clouds and drizzle hadn't lifted and it was clear they weren't going to. But I was determined to go on this walk.

So on our walk we go! We come up to a bridge and underneath is a running stream that has been set up for salmon and trout fry to swim through so I only allowed my dogs to drink from the creek.

I had seen that from where we were to where we were going was 250 m. So that was just one part, the trails are broken up so a person can calculate if necessary and it gave me a sense of accomplishment when I reached one section. We get to the end of the 250meters and check the map and make our way back which was another 300meters, my dogs meanwhile are having a lot of fun, my Jack Russell saw his prey, a black squirrel out fresh from Winter hibernation, oh I knew quite well that Blaze didn't have a chance in getting close to Mr. Black Squirrel, but just watching him try to follow him through dense forest was amusing to say the least.

So within a period of time and conversation, we make it to the end of the 300meters. I have now broken a sweat, and it dawns on me that I have gone 550meters! I figured I would calculate the final numbers when I got home, but for now I was pleased as punch at this accomplishment!

At the end I realize that I had forgotten to calculate where my car was to where our first destination was and figured it was about 150 to 250 meters; so that gave me even more incentive to want to figure all this out to miles.  So when I get to the top where the car was parked I proceed to see what was what in terms of meters etc. Nothing definite was found but based on what we just walked we had figured that from the parking lot down the hill, through the trails to the open field, follow the field to the bridge with the creek, was probably a good 200 meters!

I had accomplished 750 to 800 meters! Well, I was so happy with everything, I had this perma-grin stuck to my face!! Me, of all people after having surgery, being on bed rest for the last 6 weeks, deciding to start Weight Watchers this week, had walked without intention of walking quite this much my first week out, had just walked over 3 miles!

All this plus calculating and learning the new points program has made me pretty happy this week :)

April 3, 2011

The "Hanging In there Princess"

I was watching a couple of shows tonight, two of which I've not watched in forever! I found myself giddy with excitement and in a ton of ways it helped me to realize that the pain I have been dealing with post surgery from my hysterectomy has not taken away my enjoyment of things! This made me incredibly happy!!

I've have been having a very hard time dealing with my emotional mood swings and the ensuing roller coaster that I haven't been able to get off of. That is, until today! I had gone and picked up the medication that my family doctor had called in for me and fingers crossed I will hopefully start to feel more like myself. It is one thing to be hormonal when you have your reproductive girlie bits, but it is entirely different when not only dealing with with the various issues I am but add one more thing on top and its like BAM!

Sex, I've not been able to enjoy the intimacy of sex for weeks now. It has been strange not being able to enjoy whatever you want whenever you want. But with the mood swings and hot flashes etc I have been learning to address, sometimes remembering about sex doesn't seem like a priority. I feel like pretty soon I am going to have to make a yellow sticky of all the things I want to do and place them through my house LOL!

I am heading into week 4 now post surgery and I am hoping to start to return more to myself. But depending on who you speak to, it could really be similar to what I have been dealing with the last 3 weeks *sigh*.

Life sure deals you with a variety of curve balls, and I know that the Universe has a hand in all of this as well, just never know what the true intentions are until you are ready to see what the path laid out before one is.

So the best I can do is "hang in there" and be the "Princess" I keep being told I am  *giggles*