December 16, 2011

Holidays and D/s long distance

It has been one heck of a heavy week emotionally. At the moment I believe this is a combination of a few days of my #Advent blogging. It has suddenly become a very challenging time to remember to blog on top of the loss of my beloved pet on Wednesday. My dog has been an intricate part of my life the last 7 years, he was 11 when I released him to Rainbow Bridge. Master has been wonderful with checking in on me via Skype, but we both miss being together, especially right now.

Master has a way of making everything feel so much better and right now, I have good days and bad days, but I miss our physical connection. Our D/s relationship is good, except today I didn't get my treadmill in, but I did go and do a lot of errands, that included a fair bit of walking. I'm also keeping a weight loss tracker going as I am working on losing some weight as my doctor is concerned about my cholesterol. I've already lost 2.5 pounds and this pleases me,  and its a start but its in the right direction.

I'm feeling rather down tonight as I write my blog. I've been challenged with selling items on either Craigslist, Facebook and/or groups. Off and on it has gone well, but right now, when I could certainly use the financial gain, it feels like if it isn't one thing, its another.

On the D/s front I feel connected to Master, and I do report to him how and what I am doing. He has told me to take the time I need to do what I need to do with regards to grieving Rizzo. Tonight I have done a lot of chores on top of the chores I did that involved driving to various places.

As for the holidays, I will be on my own. Its not something I talk too much about as it makes me feel like people will feel sorry for me. My other dog Blaze plus our kittens will celebrate it together :).

Charlie Brown and Snoopy - nuf said

This is Rizzo and Blaze last winter 2010, I love how
Rizzo's coat billowed out like a puffy pillow *grins*


  1. I'm so sorry to hear about the loss of your dog. :( It's sad and hard to know what to say that can be of comfort. But when I had to let my beloved Coco go, a friend told me that one of the reasons we love our dogs so much is that they completely depend on us to give them a good and happy life. And part of that is knowing when it's time to give them the best ending they can have.

    But it's nothing but hard. I hope you take very special care of yourself.

  2. Thank you Mija for your kind words. I haven't had a chance to really do any self care. I am hopeful to soon.

  3. I'm also very sorry about the loss of your dog. :( I've lost a few pets through the years and know how upsetting it can be.
    Big hugs,

  4. Thank you padme amidala for your support and kind words. I haven't updated my blog in over week! Just had a lot on my mind.