How I See My Master

I know it has been a long time, (a few months) since I have written. There have been a variety of reasons, but now that things are starting to return to better paths, I thought I would do an update. 

I wrote this recently and am going to share it here:

Over two and half years ago you can into my life, literally by a drive to an event that cancelled suddenly. Never had I felt so comfortable as we chatted while you drove to and from the event. Your ease to make me laugh, your sexy voice was all I had known, other than a profile picture of sexy man's chest.

During our conversations, not once did I ever see a photo of you til that evening you decided to drive back from the cancelled event and we spoke of meeting. You graciously went to Tim Hortons and picked up my steeped tea and you your triple triple. When you returned, you came to my home (something I seldom, if ever allowed anyone to come to) that was the very first time I had ever seen your face, the entire person, no longer just a voice and torso. Talk about a handsome and sexy man!

As our days and weeks went by, we realized we are joined. We both just knew that we are meant to be together.

I have no words to describe the passion you bring out in me. When we have done a scene, you have always made sure to have everything I need for when I return from sub drop. Your arms surrounding me, making me feel safe, always. Even so much as to make sure the next day, how I was and if I needed anything.

I smile with appreciation when I have seen you do a scene with another submissive. To see your floggers dance across the flesh, rhythm flowing to music that pulsates through your veins.

In our day to day life, you have always had my best interests. Through surgery, recovery and physical pain, you never wavered. My mental health has been a challenge, yet with your support and communication, you have shown me that not all run away. You have given me acceptance and returning of trust, something I thought I had long since lost.

You understand me, you encourage me and challenge me.

I am proud to be your submissive and love you with all that I am.

Spank This!

Where have I been! I knew that it had been awhile but NOT this long! 

Seems a girl needs a reminder of her place! Any offers? 

I have had a very intense week and thought I would release a little naughty on you all! 

Something To Brighten Your Day

Imagine slapping and pinching those perky nipples! 

Happy Saturday!

Lixxs and Spanxs

Sierra

Stress release spanking

Lately things at home have been a bit hectic and stressful. Master has been busy with working and that takes Him away from home for many hours, as long as 16 hours!! Master treats me so very well, I am very lucky to be His submissive. Master allows me as much time as I need on the computer as He knows I have more than one blog that I write, as well as keeping in contact with the volunteer organization we work with and at times there is a flurry of activity that can't always wait til later or the next day. I also have unlimited text messaging usage, however, if Master wants my time, I shut everything down and focus on Him and His needs. That is just the way our M/s relationship is and I wouldn't change it for anything! 

We don't get to play very much, it seems that things just get the better of us. I sure do miss those heavy spankings where I feel the stress just melt away from me and the warmth of my ass shiny and warm! I'm always wondering how we will play, what with our several pets LOL! 

I love it when Master gets His toys out. I get wet and excited when I see them laid out in front of me. Master will being spanking me with His hand, I never count how many He has done because I start to become focused on our play together. I usually don't know which toy He will pick up and use on my ass. I do have favorites but I know He does too *wink*. 

During our play Master will ask me to spread my legs, He likes to look at my shaven pussy, freshly tidy just for Him. When I spread my legs for Him, it doesn't matter if I am on the St. Andrew's Cross or on our bed and on all 4's, His happiness is all that matters. I love being his "Good Girl". 

There are times where I will ask Master to spank me harder, that I want it to be difficult to sit down. Of course Master, always obliges :). I've had play where my ass has been so red that welts and bruising have been the gifts of my time with Him. Master will bite my neck, and growl. Oh how I love it when He growls and demands I cum for Him. I love it when He says "Cum girl, Cum for me". Oh the power of those words, and the orgasm that follows! Thank you Master for making me cum so hard for you!  Thank you for using me and taking me to your darkside! 

Master is a sensual dominant, in that He is a very caring and loving Master, but don't think He can't be strict! If I am not to move and I do, boy do I get a paddle for it! If Master asks how I am doing, I will always tell Him how I am feeling. It is very important to our scene that He knows if I am ok or not. We don't pay attention to time. When we play, we are in the moment and all that matters is us. I miss those times together. 

I love it when Master ties me up. Lately he has been practicing some new rope work and boy does it look hot! I can't wait to wear the "rope panties" He has been working on perfecting! So hot! I love when Master puts clothes pegs and/or other implements on my tits to make my nipples erect and hard. My body becoming  tingly and numb with the pegs on my nipples, but then when He removes them there are no words to describe the intensity of what feels like pain, only to have it bring you to orgasm! 

I always love how submissive I feel after we have played on the dark side. I love cuddling with Him, sitting at His feet, feeling safe and warm in His love for me.

I've had people ask me what is it about spankings that I like. My answer is pretty simple, I enjoy the arousal and feeling of being wet and knowing that Master also enjoys our play together. I love the warmth of my ass, I love seeing the marks after our play. I really enjoy our sex after a scene too!  

I hope we will be able to have some stress release spankings very, very soon! 

Lixxs and Spanxs! 

Grinding in the laundry room - fucked in the bedroom

Yep its one of THOSE kinds of posts lol!

Sleepy Sunday mornings, where I am doing laundry and Master comes in to check something and slides his body parallel to mine.  His cock alerts me to his sexual desires as Master lifts my naughty nightie exposing my flesh....

I get onto our bed, on all fours, nightie (very short and sexy) slipped above my waist exposing my ass. Master fondles every part of my body asking me if I have missed Him. Naturally I say I have, as He fingers my pussy, preparing me for what is to come.

I feel the tip of His cock playing with my pussy lips, the lube sliding around and making everything nice and slippery. SMACK, goes His hand on my ass, telling me how much He has missed my ass, THRUST as grabs my hips and says that they are the sexiest hips and are happy they are His.

I could go on.... but use your imagination, share your thoughts, let me know what you would like to see as the result of our morning....

Transparent Life

My Dominant and I have remained in touch for many years. We flirt, we text, we send messages on Fetlife, its nice to have that connection.

He is someone I look to for friendship and support. Our friendship has grown and although we don't see one another very often, what with work, commitments, you know how life can be like that.  There is no judgment with Him, just as there are no judgments from my primary, Master C.

I've been there for Him the last few weeks as has my fellow slave sister. He has been going through numerous tests and the results finally come through yesterday.

My Dominant is about to go through some life changes and I plan on being there for Him, as my slave sister will be as well.  He needs that right now, someone to help Him adjust to new medications, proper healthy foods as well as making sure He remains in as good a spirits as possible.

Being poly to me doesn't mean just sexually.  Polyamory means having a loving relationship with more than one person. It means being romantic with more than one person.  To go back to the word itself, it means investing amorous emotions in more than one person.

Master C and I are very transparent with one another.  It means that everyone, including my Dominant, knows what the other is doing, who they are seeing and who they are sleeping with. No one engages in NSA sex, everyone knows their sexual partners well enough to know their particular relationship will continue for awhile and that it will be based on more than just casual sex; everyone respects one another and their is always mutual sensitivity towards everyone's feelings.

In other words, it is not about "just" sex.
It is about love.

Changes

I've been going through my profile on Fetlife and removing and adding topics and "likes".

What about about yourself? Do you go through your lists? Friends, Kinks, Likes/Dislikes/ Forums?

What do you feel it says about you?

I feel pretty good about going through and making changes. I feel it shows where my growth is and it also has it has given me a chance to add forums I hadn't been able to find before.

I love being kinky, having fetishes, friendships in the Community with like minded people.

Kink is good!

Reflecting

I feel like I have been neglecting my kink community and readers. BOO!

I think in some ways I have, yet from time to time I read my fellow kink bloggers blogs and catch up on what they have been up to, what has been asked as a topic of conversation or perhaps a new fetish has arisen!

So here's an idea!! I'm going to write a Top 5 Blog! I want it to include things I have learned, kinks you have shared, and tips I have picked up!

Now let's get started:

1. What topics interest you my reader? Are you wanting more topics that are about my kink life, or more about our kink community and things I learn?
2. Do you think I should get a bare handed spanking, a crop, or flogger when I have been a naughty submissive? 
3. What do you think is important in a D/s relationship? 
4. Have you been in a Total Power Exchange relationship? If so, what have you liked/disliked about it?
5. Do you have down times where you don't blog for a while? Do you let your readers know?

I look forward to hearing from you!

Lixxs and Spanxs, 

When eating

or licking your Master/Mistress cock or pussy what do you enjoy the most? Is there something you look for in scent and taste? Have you ever discussed with your Master/Mistress foods to avoid when going down on them? Some may say they will eat what they want and you will just suck it up. Others, as has been my experience, will actually discuss this topic. I think it is important because if you don't enjoy licking pussy or sucking cock and it is an important part of your sexual relationship, this could cause some serious problems.

I know for me, I've learned over the years what fruits enhance the flavor of cum in a positive way. I'm not a huge cum lover, but I do like sucking cock. I love to feel the hardness as it goes down my throat, I love deep throating and I love how my spit makes Master's cock look.

What makes a good cock sucker? What makes a good pussy licker? Is it texture? Is it scent? Is it attention to detail?

Discuss!

Are you?

I've been chatting with my former Dominant. We have always remained close and we have played over the years. Master has met him and there are no issues with me playing with Him.

I also have a close friendship with Him. He said that He knows He will always get the truth from me. Its nice to know that my words are valued. I am also this way in my submission. When I choose to be a submissive to Master or to this Dominant, I take it very seriously because I know that being a good girl is what makes them happy as well as myself. I find when I am doing what makes me happy, it shows in my service.

I've not had a poly relationship in a while. Sometimes I miss it, other times I am wrapped up in my other projects. But somehow I always remember my place. If not, I get reminded!

How about you? Are you in a poly relationship?

Fetlife

Lately there has been issues on  Fetlife. For those that don't know Fetlife  is a BDSM kink community site.

For many months now, the site has come up on news media for various reasons, which if you think about it, is really no different than Facebook, its just that Fetlife is a site where people who may keep their kinks to themselves, many of us embrace ours. The other reason people choose to be anonymous about themselves is because society doesn't accept people who choose to live a lifestyle that accepts them for who they are. When a breach has happened, many become anxious and angry.

Some of the issues with breach of the terms of agreement for using the site, members outing one another when a relationship goes wrong and links being shared that involve children, which is in direct violation of the terms of agreement.

I don't know about you, but for me, I have scaled back what is on my profile and have been removing more and more photos (not that that changes anything, because we all know that once you put something up on the internet, it is up for life). The reason for me is simple, I've not been active in the community as much as I once was and I feel it is wrong to have comments on my profile depicting that I am available when right now, I'm focused on other areas of my life.

While the site has given me a platform for community, friendships, education and growth. I am concerned about the level of protection given. People need to take accountability for themselves, but when the owner of the site breaches his own Terms of Agreement, one has to wonder just what is deemed safe anymore?

Negotiating

Today was subbie tea day! I've not been in quite sometime and I very nearly didn't attend. I've been having a lot of trouble with getting sleep and subsequently my mood and energy is lacking. But Master insisted I go, He was going to be doing some renovations to our bathroom while I was away. 

I got to our subbie tea location and as usual our hostess, with the mostess, has outdone herself. Always conscious of allergies and food concerns for everyone. There was 1% milk, almond milk and soy milk for your tea and coffee. To gluten free foods, fresh fruits with chocolate for dipping, vegetables with a herb dip as well as spinach dip with homemade made bread to go with it.  It is a great time to catch up with other submissive people as well as discuss the day's topic which was: 

THE ART OF NEGOTIATION

This topic wasn't just for new people to the bdsm kink community. It is always great to have a refresher. For me today this refresher was in the discussion of safe words and realizing there are many different ways to get your safe word out. 

1. You can use visual "safe words" as they are excellent for when you are at a public play party and it is noisy. Or if you have a ball gag in your mouth.  An example of a visual can be a yellow ball in one hand and a red ball in the other hand. They can represent your level of acceptance.
2. You can use a small object and toss it on the floor or towards your Top when you have reached your "red" level of acceptance (if that is what you have negotiated). 

I found this topic refreshing as I have been in the bdsm community for 5 years this year and it is always good to go over your check list of what you are ok with watching, what you won't do, what you love and what you are curious about. 

Always remember there is NEVER to be any negotiation once a scene has started. 

That all limits are off the table until discussed. THEN and only THEN are the ones agreed to, are the ones allowed. NEVER allow a Top to introduce during a scene a change that you did not consent to. 

Always remember that negotiations will always be ongoing, as you evolve and grow. Mine have and I'm sure yours have or will the longer you are in the Community. 

Spanxs and Lixxs

Its the little things

This morning I got up and made Master a fresh pot of coffee. He is a man who in the morning is very groggy and will often just grab whatever is available, but I thought He would like something fresh. He takes such good care of me, especially with my lifestyle eating changes. He has been measuring my portions, and reminding me of the benefits of making sure I get enough protein and exercise. I love how it is the little things that keep our dynamic working.

I also love it when we will be giving kisses goodbye and He asserts His dominance by grabbing a bunch of my hair at the back of my hair and passionately kisses me.

What do you like to have done to you/with you as a reminder of your dynamic?

Spanking thoughts

I have been thinking.... and yes I do that a lot *giggles*

Do any of you go through periods of where there isn't play? Could be from an illness, busyness of life, etc.

How do you make sure to get your "spank on" when you can't always play as you once did?

Do you (submissive/slave) get permission from your Master/Sir to spank yourself?
Do you (if your single) make sure to feed your craving on your own?
Do you ask your Master/Sir for some play time?

I'd be very interested to hear your suggestions and thoughts!

Happy Tuesday Everyone!!

Spanxs and Lixxs!

Sexy Valentine's Day Wishes

Where has the time gone? It seems like yesterday we were in December and now we are here :)

Master and I wanted to wish all of you a Happy Kinky Valentine's Day!! May all your fantasies and kinks come true!

Next Time He Will Attach my Tits..

With nipple clamps to the treadmill!!

Yep, that's what Master said to me after our workout at the gym today.

He may be a  mean old man, but I love the way He thinks!

He does give a new spin on exercise and kink being combined!!

His determination to our health and weight loss is paying off and will continue to pay off.

For dinner we are having mashed cauliflower, meat and probably salad. All prepared by Him.

I am so blessed to have Him for my Master.

Licks and Spanxxs!

Happy HumpDay!!

Master and I have spent a lot of time doing things other than kink, as I said in my last post Keeping Up With Kink

As my naturopath wants me to not eat any wheat or dairy right now, Master has been overseeing that I don't. It means really thinking about my food choices and also learning about the different foods that are out there!  I love how Master makes sure I eat what is best for me and we talk over things to make and what is best.

We shop for organic products as much as possible, not only for the health benefits, but because I need to eat as minimal hormone produced products. Our meats are a primary source for growth hormones because farmers force growth on our animals as well as spraying pesticides on our vegetables.

So in the Spring Master and I plant our own vegetables. Master encourages me to grow our own vegetables because I love to be outside working in the yard and I like growing foods that I know have nothing harmful on them.

As for playing on the darkside, Master was very ill with the Norwalk Virus and has only just started to feel better. We hope to be visiting the darkside very soon!

Happy Hump Day!!

Keeping Up with Kink

Happy Friday Everybody! 

Sometimes life throws us curves and changes that make it difficult to keep up with our fetishes and kinks. 

That's what has happened with Master and I, just as I suspect it has happened to many of you. 

I have a mental illness and I do write on another blog as to how I am doing. You are more than welcome to follow Finding My Way Back as well I also do a fair bit of volunteer work with rescuing dogs from high kill shelters I also blog about the benefits to fostering, adopting and rescuing Everyday Wiggles. 

Health wise, I've been busy this week with appointments, so it has really taken away from blogging and staying in touch with people. 

Kink wise, there is West Coast Bound this weekend. I really wish we could go, but money is super tight right now and we just can't afford it. 

I am also on Tumblr and have just reconnected on there, boy have I missed it! Feel free to follow me there, I have all kinds of naughty thoughts revealed!Sexy On The Darkside

So that's what I have been up to! What have you all be up to? I'd sure love to hear how you all are doing.

Predatory Submissive

Happy New Year! Hard to believe that 2013 is here and we are ringing in lots of happiness and journies to be had!

Today I feel I must share an experience I have recently gone through with someone. Normally this kind of experience is usually when you have a Dominant that tries to bully and control you. Well, this is the reverse. 

I am going to copy and paste the msgs I received, I will block out names etc. The reason for posting it is to make you all aware that even a Submissive can be a supreme bully and controlling. Unfortunately it looks like this carried over to Facebook as I am friends (were) with the Dominant at the heart of this problem. 

Master has been amazing! He has handled things with tact and respect. I am proud to be his submissive. 

This started because I called someone Daddy, as he has been like a father figure to me for a very long time and His Submissive didn't like it. 

SHE: How are you?

I would like to be friends with anyone who refers to my man as Daddy ;0)

I'm a little jealous of * to say the least!

ME: I see.

I take it hasn't shared with you how long I've known Daddy?

 I've known him quite sometime, he is a good man, and has been very supportive of me, as I have of him especially with his family matters.

I would prefer to speak with Daddy first, before friending.

Thank you.

SHE: Yup, he's shared that with me! I have no issues with it at all. 

I just figure it's about time we become friends, don't you think?

Especially since we intend on getting married, that would make you.... a sister?

ME: Uh no, not a sister.

SHE: No? Not a Sister?

Well then, I guess you need to back the fuck off and defriend him because I AM HIS FUCKING GIRL and we plan on getting MARRIED. And I do NOT like anyone addressing him with a capital "D" when it comes to Daddy.

And YES I DO have his password and read his fucking PM's. And I read his fucking posts. I tried to be nice to you, but I will defend my man to hell. You talk to HIM ... you're talking to ME.

Sorry - you could have been a great friend. But I've known a lot of those in the past that not only changed, but saw others fuck over people on here. And I am NOT GOING TO LET THAT HAPPEN TO POPPY.

UNDERSTAND?

You can block me and I'll still read your shit thru Daddy's account because I have his password. I've been here long enough to see a puppet account and know who you are.

You're not the only fucking slut who has done this in the past 2 years.....so get in line motherfucker. Your ticket is now UP!

Sorry...I tried to be nice. Consider yourself now "Daddy-less". If I EVER see you sniffing around...your ass is fucking MINE!

I defend my friends with the utmost vengeance. I will take anyone on like a fucking tank. For MY MAN IT IS 10X AT LEAST WORSE.

I've been around and seen the PM's and posts from those who have me blocked .... don't underestimate me.

Happy New Year!

ME: Seriously, Good luck with that.

Just because you are marrying him doesn't mean I have to be friends with you.

All you have done is show your true insecure colors. It does not bother me that you check his email, have his password, or even know when he goes to the bathroom.

You are not going to bully me. I do not know you, and I have no interest in knowing you. Your experiences with those in the past, have no bearing on me. ***** is a very kind man, I am not surprised he has been burned by a few that are less than desirable and that is a shame. He has always tried to see the good in people.

** has been like a father to me for a long time. I would highly suggest you take a step back and think about all you have written. Do you see how insecure you are?

I don't care if you are the queen sheep of sheeba. ***** will always be my friend.

I am happily involved with someone and have been for a few years. Master and ***** have chatted and in fact ***** chatted with my Master to make sure He would treat me well. This all happened before you came along, and you came along long after ****'s mess. You weren't His ear when He was at a loss as to why his family was falling apart. You weren't there when he would call asking for just a few minutes to feel like someone truly cared and weren't out to cause him grief. Especially when he was new to the scene and didn't know anyone outside of the events *****and her then husband took him too.

As to your "threat" of not underestimating someone, girl, you have no idea who you are talking to. I don't take kindly to threats made to me. My Master will be having words with yours.

SHE: We'll see.

Good luck with that.

POPPY60SBABY GIRL

ME: Apparently tact and decorum are not a class you took when you chose to be a submissive. Seriously, I could toss you to the wolves of a true submissive, and have you squashed down to a mere blink of a piece of dust.

Its time to leave the high school mentally at high school.

Grow Up!

SHE: Fuck you.

I'm sure "Daddy" wouldn't like that mouth

ME: Actually, yes Daddy would like this mouth, it knows how to act and when to. Lashing out and bratting at another submissive are not deemed an acceptable quality in a submissive. You may want to think about that.

SHE: Daddy is ABOUT THAT PATHETIC you cunt.

I talked to him...you're blocked.

Think about THAT.

This morning I received a reply from the friend at first he was apologetic and said it was being handled. I said thank you and appreciated it. I also said that I had tried to tell her I am not a threat. "He" said that "he" thinks she took it the wrong way. 

The conversation continued and Master and I were speaking online. He after reviewing the conversation feels very confident that I in fact never spoke to my friend and that it was her. I asked "him" to call me at the number he had. "he" said he couldn't. I asked why? To which another stall came up with "Things are getting really crazy". I ask what happened? The reply I got was "I'm sorry I have to de-friend you on Fetlife - again - sorry. 

At the end of it all, I have been removed from his friends list on Facebook as well. 

I know my friend and this is not Him. I am sad and deeper down I am angry. Angry that someone so insecure of her relationship with her Master, has attacked me, threatened me, bullied me and for what? 

All because I called someone in my life Daddy. 

Liebster Award

I was catching up with one of my favorite blogs that I frequent My Bottom Smarts and Bonnie has posted that she was awarded the Liebster Award. Congratulations Bonnie! 

I did some research on what this Award was about and from what I have found its origin is in Germany as a way to encourage bloggers with fewer than 200 followers on their blog. I’ve seen a few definitions of the German word “Liebster”. The ones I think probably best for the award are “beloved” and “favorite”. Part of accepting this award is to nominate 5 other bloggers for the award. It is not required that they live or have lived in Germany.

As I was reading Bonnie's answers to the 11 questions about herself as well as questions that the blogger who nominated her asked.  In a unique style, Bonnie decided to ask the following:

If there is anyone out there who has a blog and feels worthy of a Liebster (whatever that means), please consider yourself officially invited to participate by me. Here are your questions:

1. What's the most foolish thing you've ever bought? MC Hammer Pants lol
2. What is your favorite body of water? Pacific
3. After a spanking, lotion or no lotion? no lotion
4. Would you skinny dip if you could be sure that no one would see? I'd skinny dip for sure!
5. What was the first name of your first crush? John
6. What is your favorite flower? Carnation, same as my grandmother
7. What is the best reason to have children? To name just one is so difficult! To be able to love unconditionally, to teach and show them the beauty of life.
8. Do you snore? No I don't snore.
9. What is your favorite smell? Baking Bread
10. Are you attracted to people in uniform? Yes, definitely!
11. Do you prefer mountains, beach, forest, desert, grasslands, or city? I prefer the mountains

I pass the torch as Bonnie has, please share your answers to the above 11 questions. I look forward to reading your answers!

Enjoy your night!

Lixxs and Spanxs!

Top 100 Sex Bloggers of 2012

Today we saw that a friend of ours from Journey To the Darkside made it on this list again this year they are number 62!! Congratulations to Anakin and Padme amidala.

Be sure to check out Between My Sheets to see the list in its entirety! 

The goal this year is to visit as many of the blogs on the list that I've never visisted before and I will leave a comment. I am looking forward to making new friends, following new and amazing writers. Hey and as we are heading into the holiday season, why not wear a little garland "in all the right places" *wink*. I will be sure to say that Rori, from Between My Sheets sent me! 

Lixxs and Spanxs!

Sensual Sierra