Changes

I've been going through my profile on Fetlife and removing and adding topics and "likes".

What about about yourself? Do you go through your lists? Friends, Kinks, Likes/Dislikes/ Forums?

What do you feel it says about you?

I feel pretty good about going through and making changes. I feel it shows where my growth is and it also has it has given me a chance to add forums I hadn't been able to find before.

I love being kinky, having fetishes, friendships in the Community with like minded people.

Kink is good!

Reflecting

I feel like I have been neglecting my kink community and readers. BOO!

I think in some ways I have, yet from time to time I read my fellow kink bloggers blogs and catch up on what they have been up to, what has been asked as a topic of conversation or perhaps a new fetish has arisen!

So here's an idea!! I'm going to write a Top 5 Blog! I want it to include things I have learned, kinks you have shared, and tips I have picked up!

Now let's get started:

1. What topics interest you my reader? Are you wanting more topics that are about my kink life, or more about our kink community and things I learn?
2. Do you think I should get a bare handed spanking, a crop, or flogger when I have been a naughty submissive? 
3. What do you think is important in a D/s relationship? 
4. Have you been in a Total Power Exchange relationship? If so, what have you liked/disliked about it?
5. Do you have down times where you don't blog for a while? Do you let your readers know?

I look forward to hearing from you!

Lixxs and Spanxs, 

Thank you Padme amidala

My good friend whose blog  Journey to the Darkside  is one I follow and read regularly. 

Today she spoke on her Twitter profile padmeamidala about crossing things off her bucket list. Well, I realized that is something I hadn't done since I posted my Bucket List  back in February of this year.  So I went through it and I can happily say there are quite a few things I have done!! So I wanted to acknowledge them and to you my readers, encourage you to write your own bucket list. It is so important what you want to do and then realize you have done them!

Work on my weight loss and get back to my karate weight 

Work on my cardiovascular

Add exercises every day or other day til I am at 30 to 45 mins.

Take Blaze (my dog) to Tynehead Park and walk an hour at least once a week

Learn how to use YouTube 

Learn how to make money online with PTC (Point to Click)

Expand my vegetable garden 

Enjoy a Hot Stone Massage 

Have a Long Term Savings account

Check out Allure 

Create an income from online sites

See the Northern Lights

Ride a mechanical bull

This really taught me the power of having a bucket list. I feel really good to know that there are a few things I have done and today I even added some that I hadn't thought about before, but definitely want to do. 

Growth and Change

As I evolve more and more into who I want to be, versus who I "wish" to be, I've begun to see how complex each change really is. From breaking down the structure of how stress works to learning how to handle anger in a much more constructive and productive way.

I was at my therapy session today and I realized something really profound. I realized that it is important for me to figure out what my value is as a woman, as a person and as a life partner. I have come to realize I value the sanity I have felt the last 16 months of my life since I moved into my own home. No longer under the roof of a landlord, property manager or anyone other than myself, pets and my boyfriend. I now choose what I want to have go on in my home, that I value myself enough to know that I want to continue my journey of calm versus the many years of chaos I have lived through.

I am not ashamed to live a peaceful existence where seeking the belief of spirits and my own high power as I believe it to be, surrounds me as does lighting candles and incense for my own personal balance. I realize now that the work I have been doing on myself is complex, that the ingrained belief pattern that once was and at times tries to run the daily program of my life, is now being challenged there is now a root in my soul as I see it a cement block and within the cement block, there are buds and the starting of vines. I realized today those vines are the starting of a new life, a healthier life, where my thoughts, feelings and beliefs are become clearer, as is the heartache of what was once my life fading away into an abyss.

This growth also reflects my future choosing in Pin Up Modelling. I am excited to be exploring the designs, images and creative processes that will be before me. The creative process is always very exciting to me. The holiday season is fast approaching and I am looking forward to ideas and discussions on many possibilities.

I look forward to hearing from photographers, make up artists, other models, on their
upcoming projects and scheduling of dates to produce some AMAZING photography!

Love, Laugh and Live

Sierra